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I'm not sure I like this person I'm becoming. I don't feel any different but clearly I must be otherwise I would never have done what I did. Or maybe I'm just loosening up. For years I've remained on a high horse about . . . well, about so many different things, most of them illegal and all of them bad for you or the other person involved. And now look at me, I was comfortable with it and I don't think I would have acted differently if I could. Such things happen to everybody sometime, and it felt time for me. Can I still advise against and not be thought a hypocrite? When I was ten or so I was told not to start smoking by a man as he was lighting up. Does the fact that people don't follow their own advice make it any less true, or does it just make it harder for us to follow it.
I didn't finally succumb to peer pressure, because there was no pressure (not for me any way). I just gave in to my curiosity enough to try, not over indulge but just enough to get the feel for what it would be like. I'll be honest, I could have done with out the drinking and the smoking but the social interactions, oh god those were fun and for that reason I will crave a repeat of the night.
Thankfully the show is over and this group of people may either never reassemble or else never do so around me - so for a time what is left of my innocence is safe.
Yay . . . (^.^)
~J