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Been awhile huh?
Sep. 5th, 2005 10:30 amI haven't written much at all, partly because since we got DSL at home (the comp. rejected it) I haven't been able to get online much, but mostly it's because I just haven't done much. Early in the summer I tried to get my friends together but after that failing a few times I just gave in and had a typical lazy summer (movies, food, books, and above all sleep). Despite my lack of a social life its been fairly pleasant.
We went to the State Fair last week, not too bad overall. I didn't see much since we weren't there very long but I listened to a chorus (which wasn't half bad, and sadly not half good either) I saw the Irish Dance academy perform (yay! Gavin. He isn't the best dancer but I like him so I'm biased. I did see Milo there with a friend of hers. Sadly they, Katie and Jeff all think Gavin's gay, before I asked I thought so too, but I did ask and he said "no, why does everyone think that?" so I'm leaning toward believing him). The bad part about the fair (aside from five of us in one little car) was that Jeff is a royal pain in the ass under two circumstances (or at least two) 1) if you drag him to a live performance and 2) if you take him to some place crowded. Katie took him to both, and instead of being a good boyfriend and playing along he did the girlie thing and moped the entire time(hence why we were there for such a short time). Everyone thinks they'll get married someday (including themselves) and I can see it happening but I hope these minor issues that piss them both off don't expand into something darker.
I've always been an advocate for gay rights, I never saw any difference between LGBT and straights, the same way I see no difference between the races, I mean we're all just people. But despite that and despite being "out of the closet" (let's see, self- going on three years, friends- two and a bit, family- going on six months) I haven't really gotten into the culture (I didn't even know what the Kinesy scale was, or the fact that there's apparently a special one for bis). I just never had the nerve, I always thought someone I knew might see me - it's the same sort of thrill you get from looking at porn in a public place, like you could get caught at anytime. I'm not even talking about 'dirty books' (mind you I have seen a few cleverly-titled ones) but simple things like gay/lesbian fiction, movies, art, that kind of thing. (As sort of a weird side note pictures of naked people - like porn - is less . . . interesting to me, shall we say, then artistic photos and painting of the same thing, it's like the difference between porn and a love scene in a movie, straight sex (no pun intended) is boring and often downright unappealing, but if you play with shadows, sounds, and limited visibility it takes on a whole new element - let people run away with their imaginations and they'll come up with more details then you could ever show them). Anyway, back to the original point which is I'm starting to get into the culture.
Movies or books I recommend on the subject of LGBT:
Philadelphia - Very sad but very good, Tom Hanks deserved the Oscar. Andy (Hanks) is an exceptional lawyer with a major firm (he's also gay and has AIDS). He gets fired from the firm for "misplacing a file". He sues them for wrongful termination, sadly though no one will take his case until (after a long search) Denzel Washington's character agrees, despite being a homophobe. A very touching story about fighting for what's right. (Adding a happy note Andy's long standing partner Miguel is played by the very young, very attractive Antonio Banderas)
In and Out - A comedy inspired by Tom Hanks's Oscar acceptance speech for Philadelphia. Kevin Kline plays an English teacher in a small town where everyone knows each other's name and their claim to fame is a single young man who made it big in the movies, after play a gay soldier the aspiring actor thanked his "English teacher, Mr. Bracket, and he's gay" This simple speech turns the teacher's life upside down (especially since he was planning on marrying three days after the Oscars). Very fun, the light side of coming out.
The Celluloid Closet - A documentary (one of my favorites) about homosexuality in film, includes interviews with actors who were in gay roles and LGBT writers, producers, and actors. Also a hellava (such a strange word) lot of movie clips and some in-sight into our culture you may not have thought of (when my Mom and I first saw it they brought up the point that in films 'n*gger' is said only by two black guys to each other or by an inbred sheriff, while Faggot is said by everyone and anyone - She (my Mom) said she'd never noticed how often they use it).
Rainbow Boys by Alex Sanchez - (I found it last week, very cute despite darker aspects). Three boys - Kyle, Nelson, and Jason are all seniors in high school, they come from very different social groups but they're all gay (or in Jason's case Bi). It's a continuing story (Rainbow High, Rainbow Road) about their lives, relationships, and dealing with being gay in an uncertain and damned unfair world (Two of them get gay bashed on a regular basis but one is popular and gets accepted with open arms, the lucky bastard). Over all well worth the read, if only for the girlie giggle moments when two of them fall for each other.
It's been days since I wrote the above (I had to go home in the middle and haven't been back since) so I don't really know where I was going. School starts tomorrow (sort of) the beginning of my senior year. And my response to this life altering news? Shitshitshit! Turning into squirrel girl and am slowly eating my fingers away in the corner as the mini-clowns chip out my brain and cart it away to make jello molds.
Huh?
Oh, never mind.
I tried out for and got into the Anchorage Concert Chorus, I haven't been in a large chorus since I was in the Children's Choir all those years ago, I forgot how embarrassing it is. I can't read music and with everyone singing all at once I can't find my parts, very bad since we're performing Beethoven's 9th (Ode to Joy) in less than a month. I know I can get it I just need someone to pound out the notes for me, harder than it sounds.
Hmmm, what other news? I went to go see Brothers Grimm with Anthea the other day, it was good, it now joins the ranks of good/stupid/silly/eye-candy movies such as LXG and Van Helsing.
After the movie I headed over to the library to return a few books I'd read (when I talked to Ant earlier that morning she was headed there before the movie). I ran into Jon M., a fellow actor and friend of Cody and Anthea, and Ellie too I think. We keep running into each other but he can never seem to remember my name, we talked for awhile about random stuff, like what he's taking at UAA, about how I can't possibly be going into my Senior year since I seem older, and about mutual acquaintances (read Anthea, the funny thing was "Anthea, how's she doing, I've been meaning to call her." "She's doing fine, actually I just went to a movie with her. How long have you been here? She came just before the flick, you must have just missed her." "Damn." Well I thought it was strange anyway. :P )
I'm running out of things to say so I better run. Love and Fuzzies, J
We went to the State Fair last week, not too bad overall. I didn't see much since we weren't there very long but I listened to a chorus (which wasn't half bad, and sadly not half good either) I saw the Irish Dance academy perform (yay! Gavin. He isn't the best dancer but I like him so I'm biased. I did see Milo there with a friend of hers. Sadly they, Katie and Jeff all think Gavin's gay, before I asked I thought so too, but I did ask and he said "no, why does everyone think that?" so I'm leaning toward believing him). The bad part about the fair (aside from five of us in one little car) was that Jeff is a royal pain in the ass under two circumstances (or at least two) 1) if you drag him to a live performance and 2) if you take him to some place crowded. Katie took him to both, and instead of being a good boyfriend and playing along he did the girlie thing and moped the entire time(hence why we were there for such a short time). Everyone thinks they'll get married someday (including themselves) and I can see it happening but I hope these minor issues that piss them both off don't expand into something darker.
I've always been an advocate for gay rights, I never saw any difference between LGBT and straights, the same way I see no difference between the races, I mean we're all just people. But despite that and despite being "out of the closet" (let's see, self- going on three years, friends- two and a bit, family- going on six months) I haven't really gotten into the culture (I didn't even know what the Kinesy scale was, or the fact that there's apparently a special one for bis). I just never had the nerve, I always thought someone I knew might see me - it's the same sort of thrill you get from looking at porn in a public place, like you could get caught at anytime. I'm not even talking about 'dirty books' (mind you I have seen a few cleverly-titled ones) but simple things like gay/lesbian fiction, movies, art, that kind of thing. (As sort of a weird side note pictures of naked people - like porn - is less . . . interesting to me, shall we say, then artistic photos and painting of the same thing, it's like the difference between porn and a love scene in a movie, straight sex (no pun intended) is boring and often downright unappealing, but if you play with shadows, sounds, and limited visibility it takes on a whole new element - let people run away with their imaginations and they'll come up with more details then you could ever show them). Anyway, back to the original point which is I'm starting to get into the culture.
Movies or books I recommend on the subject of LGBT:
Philadelphia - Very sad but very good, Tom Hanks deserved the Oscar. Andy (Hanks) is an exceptional lawyer with a major firm (he's also gay and has AIDS). He gets fired from the firm for "misplacing a file". He sues them for wrongful termination, sadly though no one will take his case until (after a long search) Denzel Washington's character agrees, despite being a homophobe. A very touching story about fighting for what's right. (Adding a happy note Andy's long standing partner Miguel is played by the very young, very attractive Antonio Banderas)
In and Out - A comedy inspired by Tom Hanks's Oscar acceptance speech for Philadelphia. Kevin Kline plays an English teacher in a small town where everyone knows each other's name and their claim to fame is a single young man who made it big in the movies, after play a gay soldier the aspiring actor thanked his "English teacher, Mr. Bracket, and he's gay" This simple speech turns the teacher's life upside down (especially since he was planning on marrying three days after the Oscars). Very fun, the light side of coming out.
The Celluloid Closet - A documentary (one of my favorites) about homosexuality in film, includes interviews with actors who were in gay roles and LGBT writers, producers, and actors. Also a hellava (such a strange word) lot of movie clips and some in-sight into our culture you may not have thought of (when my Mom and I first saw it they brought up the point that in films 'n*gger' is said only by two black guys to each other or by an inbred sheriff, while Faggot is said by everyone and anyone - She (my Mom) said she'd never noticed how often they use it).
Rainbow Boys by Alex Sanchez - (I found it last week, very cute despite darker aspects). Three boys - Kyle, Nelson, and Jason are all seniors in high school, they come from very different social groups but they're all gay (or in Jason's case Bi). It's a continuing story (Rainbow High, Rainbow Road) about their lives, relationships, and dealing with being gay in an uncertain and damned unfair world (Two of them get gay bashed on a regular basis but one is popular and gets accepted with open arms, the lucky bastard). Over all well worth the read, if only for the girlie giggle moments when two of them fall for each other.
It's been days since I wrote the above (I had to go home in the middle and haven't been back since) so I don't really know where I was going. School starts tomorrow (sort of) the beginning of my senior year. And my response to this life altering news? Shitshitshit! Turning into squirrel girl and am slowly eating my fingers away in the corner as the mini-clowns chip out my brain and cart it away to make jello molds.
Huh?
Oh, never mind.
I tried out for and got into the Anchorage Concert Chorus, I haven't been in a large chorus since I was in the Children's Choir all those years ago, I forgot how embarrassing it is. I can't read music and with everyone singing all at once I can't find my parts, very bad since we're performing Beethoven's 9th (Ode to Joy) in less than a month. I know I can get it I just need someone to pound out the notes for me, harder than it sounds.
Hmmm, what other news? I went to go see Brothers Grimm with Anthea the other day, it was good, it now joins the ranks of good/stupid/silly/eye-candy movies such as LXG and Van Helsing.
After the movie I headed over to the library to return a few books I'd read (when I talked to Ant earlier that morning she was headed there before the movie). I ran into Jon M., a fellow actor and friend of Cody and Anthea, and Ellie too I think. We keep running into each other but he can never seem to remember my name, we talked for awhile about random stuff, like what he's taking at UAA, about how I can't possibly be going into my Senior year since I seem older, and about mutual acquaintances (read Anthea, the funny thing was "Anthea, how's she doing, I've been meaning to call her." "She's doing fine, actually I just went to a movie with her. How long have you been here? She came just before the flick, you must have just missed her." "Damn." Well I thought it was strange anyway. :P )
I'm running out of things to say so I better run. Love and Fuzzies, J
